You never get over your first love?

im sorry to tell you this but he was just ******* you.... for 3 years, he didn't love you because he would have never walked out or he would at least care about you in some way. The way you get over it is by thinking of it differently, he didn't care for you the way you did and still today hes spiteful when all you've done is try to salvage whats left of the relationship. Don't talk to him, all he wanted was a long term partner not someone he could love.